WanderingScribe

Feb, 2006. For the past five months I have been living in a car at the edge of woods — jobless and homeless and totally unable to find a way out. I can't sing, I can't dance, I can't scream loudly enough, but I can read and write. So here I am laying down tracks...hopefully the start of an online paper trail out of here. (Update: Miracles happen....if you are reading my story I am part of your proof.)

Friday, January 11, 2008

...I really think so...

It always seems to be raining when I write a blog.

In the post today I got the application form I'd requested months ago for a stay at a writers' retreat. I'd almost forgotten I'd sent off for it...While I was writing the book it was on my list of things I really wanted to do — hiding myself away in a retreat somewhere. I went down to Fowey in Cornwall to write big chunks of 'Abandoned', locking myself away in a tall house overlooking the harbour so it was a kind of retreat then. But I crave the company of like-minded people too. But now that I have the application form for a 'real' writers' retreat, it seems a bit self indulgent to want to go off somewhere just to write. I might feel differently if it ever did happen — because you have to apply quite far in advance, a year or more ahead sometimes - and, by then, who knows what I'll be thinking...maybe I'd be all fired up for it again by then. But I'm also beginning to wonder whether I was motivated by the right thing — maybe 'real' work should continue to take priority over everything for now. Maybe life from now on should be about plans rather than dreams — at least for me, to make sure I never end up in any place like the laneway ever again. Maybe writing books is something for other more priviledge people...or at least for another time. Pipe dreams...

Rain has stopped, so I'm off on my bike to clear my head and get some air into my lungs. Hope it's stopped where you are....

17 Comments:

At 8:03 pm, Blogger xxkrazykatxx said...

hello
im katie and im 13 years old. I might seem a bit young for your book, but I just finished reading it today and I just want to say that reading it brought tears to my eyes. Your story is truly inspirational and I wish you all the happiness in the world, that you failed to have as a child.You are an amazing person and reading your book has helped me to realise, that the simple things in life matter most. Thank you so much!!!

 
At 8:47 pm, Anonymous NativeRoses said...

Hi there! You might want to check out Grub, by Elise Blackwell, a bitingly witty novel about writers, writing, and writing camps.

 
At 4:30 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi anya.. im andrew and im 17
ijust finished reading your book today (sunday 13th) and i must say it did touch me.. for a woman so young to have to endure so much.. it is a wonder your still here to tell your courageous story adn i wish you all the luck in the world and hope you find your feet soon and get your ties back to your family..

 
At 9:00 am, Anonymous A reader said...

Anya, please follow your heart. Dreams can tell us who we are and what we most deeply long for. You are a writer. Period. You have written and published one book already. Perhaps there are more stories and books inside you, wanting to be told. Yes, you need to make a living. Consider finding work that will support you, but will also let you write. Something that won't sap your creativity or dull your voice would be ideal. T.S. Eliot worked in a bank during the day. I also hope you'll apply to go to the writer's retreat. When the time comes, you'll know whether you should go or not. Blessings on you for 2008!

 
At 9:21 am, Blogger jab said...

Hi Anya

I just read your latest blog and i'm disappointed, why shouldn't you live your dreams out, of anybody in the world that I know you are the one most deserving. It would also be a sad loss to lots of us, you have a lot of support as I read all the posted comments and all we need to read more of your work, you are an inspiration and thats what we need more of. Go be self indulgent in a nice retreat you deserve it.

 
At 10:05 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hello anya,

your book was truey amazing, from front to back you didnt seem to be bitter from what you were going through. you are truely amazing and i look forward to reading your blog from now, you obviously have a talent for writing and i hope to read more of your books.

truely truely amazing.
jenny xx

 
At 11:05 am, Anonymous netty said...

Hi my name is Annette I have just finished reading your book in the space of 2 weeks which is very quick for me. I have had a very emotional year after finishig a 21 year marriage to a lovely man who beame an alcoholic through this time. Your book has made me realise that there are always people in bad or similar situations. I admire the way you have come through your troubled times and lived to tell the tale. Sometimes life is very difficult and what doesn't kill us makes us stronger..... so i've been told.

ajones

 
At 8:24 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi,
Your book was amazing. My boyfriend read it after me and he was so gripped by your story he read it all in one day. I am a teacher and it really made me think about how fortunate I am, I just hope none of the children I teach have to suffer what you did. I really hope that one day you will be happy x

 
At 10:04 am, Anonymous Ed said...

hi anya, ive been reading your blog for ages, was one of the refunded paypal-ers and I got your book days after it came out.
I'm one of the lucky ones, I love my job because i'd do it anyway as a hobby. I feel writing is very much the same for you. There have already been so many what-ifs in your life, dont add another one!
Now for flip sake girl, go on that course! :-)

 
At 11:14 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi anya i just read u book for the 1 time never heard of u till now but what a greatr book it was brought back a lot to me could not stop crying but then u have to get over it dont u hope u have a good life just as i have now and ty for the book it was great u tc allways kate

 
At 6:07 pm, Anonymous kaz said...

hi i'm another newbie to this blog who read your book within a couple of days, ans as aolt of other people have said, it really does make me feel that my gripes about work, family etc are nothing compared to what other people go thru, and it certainly made me take stock of how lucky i am and my heart and best wishes do genuinly go out to u, now get out there and get writing - u so obvioulsy do have a talant for writing things down lots of love,
kaz x

 
At 10:17 pm, Blogger Paula said...

I'm sure writing is real work y'know. Especially for someone as talented as you are. Don't give up your dream, you've come this far.

I would love to achieve mine.

All the best.

Paula

 
At 2:34 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

my young sons(11 and 13) bought me your book for Christmas - I was concerned as to know why - were they aware of the story line? Did they have some bad experience with my x husband?? But alas thank goodness it was the free choccy bar offered with it that made them decide on your book! I thoroughly enjoyed reading it - can I say that as it was borne out of so much misery? My husband who was full of flu at the time complained bitterly at the lack of attention for 3 days over Xmas whilst I read! Please enjoy your retreat - GET IT BOOKED - and live happy xx

 
At 4:59 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i read ur story in the reader's digest..its great...thanks to god...it was possible..believe in god and the impossible will be possible....god bless..take care

 
At 9:34 am, Anonymous inspirexxx said...

hey, dont worry, rain is nothing compared to your courage.. i must say im really and truly inspired by you. thanks for giving me the courage.. you rock. serious.

 
At 8:02 am, Anonymous -eLaÜ- said...

hi! I'm ela, 14 from Philippines. I read your article in Readers' Digest Last night (I was reading some past issues. I would like to say, You rock! I am a fan of yours, and god bless you always.

 
At 9:53 pm, Anonymous Jodie said...

hi. I'm jodie...17 years old.
wow, you've really got an amazing story:) i love true story books because they always make you more grateful for the things you have and not to take things for granted.. but your is far above all the rest... i go to church and at the minute weve really got a heart for the homeless...how we can help them and so on...so it was amazing to read your story an truly get an insight to how it must feel to constantly live like that. i still pray for you anya... and about the angels around your car which you spoke about in your story, i truly beleive there were angels there that day...and everyday... theres not enough room on this thing to write all i want to so im going to just say God bless you always and in many ways.... :) all my love, Jodie x (jodomes@hotmail.co.uk)

 

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