Feb, 2006. For the past five months I have been living in a car at the edge of woods — jobless and homeless and totally unable to find a way out. I can't sing, I can't dance, I can't scream loudly enough, but I can read and write. So here I am laying down tracks...hopefully the start of an online paper trail out of here. (Update: Miracles happen....if you are reading my story I am part of your proof.)

Monday, December 31, 2007

Happy New Year!

The tree lights are on behind me, the decorations still up, and I'm sitting here, cracking nuts and eating the last of the Christmas chocolates from the tin, trying to work out what my New Year's resolutions should be this year. I intended posting them here so I'd have a constant reminder. But I've just remembered that my main resolution last year was not to do any 'shoulds' at all from now on. So, hopefully, at the stroke of midnight tonight, I'll be resolving just to keep positive and to keep going forward — which is what I want most from myself next year. I've got what feels like the start of flu, so if I can keep awake for it, I'll be seeing the New Year in tonight with a pint of Lemsip and some soluble Aspirin to bring my temperature down — but there's not a hint of complaint in that, because I was part of a new friend's great, family Christmas this year and I know the coming year will be a good one.
I hope it is for us all....
Happy New Year


At 6:07 pm, Blogger Nicki said...

Happy New year Anya, with warm & friendly wishes for 2008.

Keep your head held high with what you have started to overcome with your achievements! Good Luck...

Nicki, Suffolk

At 6:57 pm, Blogger Victoria Frances said...

Happy new year.
I'm a teenage girl and have just finished reading your book.
It was amazing to read, I wish you have more books published but i'm guessing your life is pretty hectic at the minute.
I cried most of the way through your book.
I hope 2008 brings you a better year and your life picks up immensely.
Victoria Frances.

At 10:28 pm, Blogger tasha said...

I`ve just finished reading you book and think its great how you got your life back together, and overcame all that you did. I wish you all the best for 2008. Good luck Anya.

At 12:01 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy New Year!! :)

At 5:36 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy New Year Anya.

I've just finished reading your book. I bought it this evening and didn't stop reading until it was done.

I used to be like you. I was once a homeless woman living on the streets. I was only 19 at the time, and though 4 years have passed I still feel as though I'm stuck in a rut. Like you I survived off chips, scraps and cheap meals, sometimes not eating for days. I lived in a shelter because I qualified for housing (I was at the time pregnant but later miscarried when I was severely beaten by a man) but as the only woman there I was scared to fall asleep most nights.

I managed to get out of it, go to university, get a job, get married and from the outside it looks like I have the perfect life. It is such a leap from where I have come from but I often wonder if I am a fraud for it.

I've never told anyone about my past, not even my husband. It feels better somehow to read that someone, a person out there who I don't even know had similar experiences to me, and that they survived too.

Thank you for writing your book.

At 2:01 pm, Blogger Georgina.Kate said...

Happy New Year!!!!

I made my blog becuase I read your book and couldnt put it down, Im a teenage girl with a mum and dad who care about me we are not the wealthiest of all people but I have realised how luckY i am!!

Thankyou for sharing your experience with everyone,i now wish you best wishes for 2008 and hoping you got your happy ending like everyone should have!!!!

thank you anya.


At 5:46 pm, Anonymous Aimee said...

Happy new year. Hope you feel better soon x

At 1:16 am, Anonymous simyjo said...

Hi Anya, I picked up your book 2 days ago in malta airport whilst waiting for my plane. I absolutely loved it!! You are so incredibly strong. Please be so proud of yourself your an inspiration to us all :) xxxx

At 3:09 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I've just finished reading your book it was amazing!! I could have never read a whole book but I managed to get through yours as it was so interasting.i hope 2008 is a lot better and your life becomes much better.you are a wonderful writer and should be so proud of yourself,stay positive about life. Happy New Year !!xO

At 3:48 pm, Anonymous Jasmine Sparkes said...

Hello, I am a 15 year old girl and I enjoy reading all different types of books, I have just finished abbandonned and found it absoloutley amazing. You are such inspiration and a beautiful writer. I cried at the trauma you suffered and I then cried with emotion at how well you came over. You should be very proud.
Thank you so much for being such an ispiration.

Jasmine xxxxx

At 3:53 pm, Blogger becca_995 said...

Like many others, i have just finished reading your book. I was bought it for Christmas but only began reading it 2 days ago.

Your words are truely inspiring and to be able to contact you like this is amazing.

All the best for this year. I'm so glad you were strong throughout it all x

At 7:11 pm, Blogger sandra1966 said...

Hiya Anya,
I have recently read your book and it was an inspiration to us all. I hope you have a wonderful new year, as you so deserve it

At 7:57 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Anya,

I have just finished reading your book and I must say it was truly inspirational to read. Your story is really touching and it is amazing how you have pulled though the way you have. I wish you all the best in your future, you deserve it. Will be looking out for any new books you write, you are a very talented writer.

Happy new year! xxxx

At 9:29 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi there WS, just to wish you a very happy new year and to let you know I am still reading your blog and am so joyful that you have come such a long way since i began reading.God bless you forever, love Amanda

At 9:51 pm, Anonymous yorkie said...

hi my name is shirley and for one of my xmas prezzies my husband bought me your book and i have just finished it i just want you to know you are trulely a brave young lady "hats of to you girl"how you survived all of that and still come out smiling i dont know.
good luck to you this year and every year Happy New Year my friend they will always a place in my heart for you

At 11:27 pm, Anonymous amy said...

hi im 13 and have just read your book it must have been so hard reliving it all, but it was very inspiring! keep on going something good will happen!! heppy new year and all the best for 2008!! xxx

At 11:34 pm, Anonymous free spirit said...

Hi Anya,
i bought your book christams eve and cried most of Christmas day as i could not put the book down.till i had finished it. I am so pleased you made it through to the other side even though you still have a way to go to put your ghosts to rest. You are a very couragous woman and feel so proud of you even though i have never met you i feel that with reading your story that i know you. Good luck Anya

At 1:12 am, Blogger sheb_andy said...

hiya anya,
happy new year
iv just finished reading your book and it was very touching, im so glad your back on your feet, hopefully 2008 will be a beter year for you
all the best xxx

At 1:42 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy new year Anya.....

Like many who brought your book i stayed awake all night reading it i couldnt put it down. I am also fighting demons from my past as i was sexually abused by my uncle as a child and noww that i am an adult with two beautiful boys i am inspired by your book to finally get counselling and hold my head up high. Thank you for your showing me its ok to be me xoxox

At 10:03 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Anya I finished reading your book yesterday, it only took me two days. I couldn't put it down! I think you are truly an amazing person with a great soul. Hope this year is happy for you! I'll write again soon, Tara xx

At 12:04 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

happy new year anya!!!i have jst finished reading your book this morning and i was quite upset at alot of it!you must be such a strong person to go through all that as a child and then what you had to deal with as an adult and still not give up on yourself!i really hope you get everything you wish for in 2008!

nicola from glasgow x x x

At 12:30 pm, Blogger Margaretxx said...

I am 17 years old and have just finished reading your book. It was incredible and i couldnt stop reading it! you truly are an inspiration to people who are struggling with things in their life. im so pleased you managed to get through your terrible ordeal and all the best for the future x x x

At 5:08 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello Anya,
Like other people i have read your book and i have to say you have really touched me. You have gone through so much and pulled through - well done!
My sister was sexually abused as a child and took it quite bad as she now has depression and has tried to commit suicide for eight years now and has been in and out of mental hospitals and now that i have read your book you have given me faith for her to pull through like you did.
I pray life will get better and a job will come your way soon.

At 9:29 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy New Year,Anya
I hope 2008 will be the year you obviously deserve,I am so glad things are finally working out for you now..I have read you book and was very touched by your life story,as my sister unfortunetly went through a similar childhood caused by her adopted father..You are a very brave lady to be able to share you story with us all
I would also like to say that i think you are a very talented writer and hope one day when you are settled,you will go onto write more books,maybe a book on your experiences of being in your car,or maybe just a fictional book.
All the best x

At 11:50 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Anya

Yesterday afternoon, I began to read your book and by the evening I had finished reading it. I was glued to it and couldn't peel my eyes away until the end.

Your story had me smiling and your story had me in tears.

You are an inspiration. Your story gives us the strength to go through whatever lift throws at us.

Happy New Year! To many years of happiness and success to you! You deserve it.

At 2:37 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi im a 15 year old girl i just finished reading your book. my mum bought it for herself but i saw the blurb and wanted to read it myself. its really good and sad! i hope 2008 is a new good start for you. x

At 3:40 pm, Blogger Kelly1974 said...

I just wanted to say Happy New Year! All the way through reading your book I wanted you to have a happy ending, and although you have managed to pull yourself out of the situation you were in I sense that, though grateful to be where you are now you are still not happy. So I am sending you all my love and wishing almost as much as I wish it for myself that you find true love, peace and happiness! Its not because your unlovable or unworthy that your life has turned out as it has, it is other peoples shortcomings, their flaws NOT yours! What you have been through will make you stronger and by writing your book I am sure you will have helped an unimaginable number of people, therefore it wasn't in vain was it? I hope to be reading your second book shortly, which will tell how good triumphed evil, and give details of the privileged life you will then be leading! Good Luck Anya, may the little girl stood on her own in the dark kitchen become the woman admired by all those around her. May you meet your soul mate and have the family you so long for, who you will go the end of the earth to protect....god bless you....Kelly x x x
p.s when buying your book at my local Morrison’s store, the girl behind the till, who I know asked to borrow it after I had read it, and the lady behind me in the q struck up a conversation saying how she had read it and it had been an inspiration and that she used it to help identify with vulnerable children that she worked with x x

At 4:03 pm, Anonymous Magz--x said...

Hello Anya
Like the girl before me i am 13 and just finished your book. It is an amazing book and you are an amazing writer! I cried at 4 parts of the story not sure when :)
Lots of Love For The New Year!

Megan, Surrey

At 4:09 pm, Anonymous cockney said...

hello anya ive just read your book i finished it about 10mins ago,ive never emailed a author before or even used a blog its all new to me,anyway i just wanted to say your book was one of the best books ive read in a long time.im glad to hear your doing ok please keep it up and i hope you find just what your looking for no one deserves it more than you good luck for the rest of your life, love form the day family. xxxx

At 6:59 pm, Blogger duncanbuster said...

i have just finished reading your book and loved it. You are an inspiration to everyone. Happy new year!

At 7:20 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello Anya,

I was given your book as a birthday present and couldnt put it down you are one brave lady and i take y hate of to you !!

I am at presant saving money to train as a counsellor i wish to work with children who have been abused or who have lost a sibbling to illness as my young son has a contion that causes problems for him.

I have also decided to start a blog like yours about living with his condition you an amazing lady !!

I wish you a very happy future and hold your head up

xxx Julie

At 8:57 am, Blogger fiona said...

happy new year anya i have just finished reading your book and it moved me to tears i think you r an inspiration to everyone and a such a courageous women i hope all your dreams and wishes for 2008 come true for you

love and best wishes


At 4:43 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Anya,

Your book is an inspiration to keep going when times are down and to survive through even the harshest moments in life. Although it was quite painful to read, It's one of the best reads I've had in awhile and I was glued to it from the beginning to the end.

Wishing you the best for the future...
x B

At 7:58 pm, Blogger LonelyMum said...

argh... wel i just wrote you a message but i think i deleted it lol (the story of my life) but any way I just wanted to say what an amazing read i found it the most emotional book i have ever ready i could not put the book down and i am glad for buying the book.
Well i hope you have a good 2008 and that life treats you kindly. I hope your life is going the way you want it to and enjoing all the nice hot baths in this cold weather.
Well happy new year and as i say i hope life treats you well take care all the best.

Love and best wishes
Zoe, Essex.

At 12:03 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...


I am a mum of 4 children,from australia and I am almost finished your book abandoned, you write with such honesty and after all you've been through I am amazed you've come through it, I felt for you at how young you were to be treated so horrendously by all you were close to and I am so glad you got out and made something of yourself. I wish you health and happiness for 2008 and hope writing your story is helping you to heal.

At 12:53 pm, Anonymous may said...

umm iv just joined up to this site.
iv just finished ur book, i broght it for my nanr really but i started to read it and got so stuck in she said i could read it first then give it back to her.
your book has really opened my eyes to wat i do have and wat i take forgranted like just haveing the water on tap and stuff.
well thats all really
may x

At 10:11 pm, Blogger kristytia said...

I have just finished reading your book and cried most of the way through it. You will give so many people strengh and realise they are not alone. I hope you do get in contact with your Mum and Kathy. Best of luck and best wishes! May this year be a great one for you!!

At 10:49 am, Blogger keenreader said...

hi any, thanks to your wonderful book I too have just joined this site, technology, thank you for such an inspiring story, i hope 2008 is good to you and in some way I hope that you writing your story has heled in your healing process


At 1:47 pm, Anonymous taboo said...

i've just finished reading the book,and found it very emotinonal.i cried in parts of it wondering how such a small child could keep such secrets. and then as an adult having to keep more secrets just people would't know you were homeless.i hope life treats you better now you're finally beginning to pick yourself up.you truely deserve some happiness and i hope it comes your way. x jackie.

At 3:26 pm, Blogger annie123 said...

Dear Anya

I have also read your book and you have been through so much, I am so happy for you that things are starting to look better. How you survived those awful times of dispair, I dont think I would have been able to live through what you have, you showed great courage, you will inspire people who find themselves in such situations. I wish I could have known you and been a friend to you when you were living this nightmare, your family should be ashamed of how they treated you, I wonder if you have had any contact with your relatives now living in Spain since the publication of your book.
I wish you all the luck in the world for the future and more than anything hope that you find the love and security that you deserve.

At 9:35 pm, Blogger kizy said...

Happy 7th of January Hunni from Caroline all the way up in scotland.

Like many people who find you here i too have just finished your book, it was a birthday present and kept me awake from 3am last Saturday until 7:22am when my daughter came to tell me it was time to get up. I couldn't sleep that night and thought i'd have a little read before dozing off but once i started i coudn't stop. It felt almost disrepectful not to continue reading. I sent a text to Jason who bought me the book the next day to thank him for bringing your story into my life and i have now passed it onto my boyfriends mammy to read.
My little girl just turned 5 on her birthday and my tears fell for all those children who have and are suffering everyday in their own private hell.
I'm looking forward to checking your blogs out some more if thats okay.

God bless you Anya xxx

At 11:12 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I suppose like many others I ended up here after finishing your book. My mum bought it for me for Christmas and to be honest it was one of the most compelling books I have ever read. I am studying Social Work at University in Glasgow and reading your story has helped me overcome the doubts I was having about Social Work as a profession. Your story is truly remarkable and I would like to thank you from the bottom of my heart for sharing this story with all of us. I hope you feel better soon and all the best for 2008.

Victoria x

At 10:32 am, Anonymous ally said...

hi Anya
happy new year.
i have just read your book and found it the most moving book i have ever come across, and believe me i've read some books! i just want to wish you all the best for the future and to tell you that i think you are an absolutly amazing person.

At 9:30 pm, Blogger Stephanie said...

I've just finished reading your book and will be recommending it to everyone I know. It has been such a true inspiration and I humbly salute your determination, perseverance, courage and strength.

May 2008 bring you all the happiness, joy, laughter and love that you so deserve. Keep going Anya, you are a survivor.

At 1:09 am, Anonymous domi said...

All the best Anya

I was moved and inspired by your book Anya, hope you get all you wish for in 2008 and the years to come you deserve it

take care Anya

domonique x

At 11:11 am, Blogger Louise said...

Like many others I have just finished reading your book. My mum bought it for my christmas and it only took me 2days to read, I just couldnt put it down. You are an inspiration to everyone, showing that no matter what life throws at you, you can survive and come out the other side. I myself have 2small kids and I dont know what I'd do if anyone ever treated them the way your family have treated you.. I wish you all the best for your future and pray that you will find the happiness that you deserve. I also hope you can find it in yourself to write more novels, which of course I would look forward to reading.
Take care of yourself and all the best

At 10:40 pm, OpenID chellefaye21 said...

Hi Anya

I couldn't put your book down once I had started to read it. I read late into the early hours of the morning and when I did sleep, dreamt about your story.

You have had a big effect on my way of thinking. How could you possibly be so brave, so young. I admire you so much. I just wanted to put my arms around you as I was reading. I wish I was able to be as forgiving as you found yourself to be.

I have had a lot of people let me down over the years, especially family. I no longer see my Mum or Dad, yet miss them so much. My husband left me for someone else too. The common link must be me, and I have been feeling sorry for myself for too long. Your story has made me think deeply about my situation.

I hope you are happy in watever you are doing. I will be reading your blog reguarly now I know about it.

Thinking about you.

Michelle xxxoooxxx

At 11:08 pm, Anonymous BubbleBlower said...

I've just finished reading your book. I'm so glad that you had the personal power to write the truth - it gives some of us who are also hiding 'secrets' the courage to face another day. You found a path through the hard times and you really are an inspiration to us all. Thank-you so much for telling your story and lighting the candle at the end of the tunnel. :)

At 5:31 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hello anya, im an australian teenager and i have just finnished reading your amazing book and i would like to say you are so amazing and brave, i could never imangine half the world you have lived though, you are an inspiration to all... happy new year

At 1:49 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...


I just wanted to say, i just finished reading your book this morning. I couldnt tear away from it and had to remind myself at times that this has really happened to someone. Some of it made me sick, i dont know how people can be let to roam free after doing to children what you went through! but i am so glad you seem to have pulled through, although you still have a way to go. I know you will get where you want to be. Just stay positive! I was glad to read that you didnt fall into drugs and drink which a lot of people seem to do in your situation. I wish you the best of luck in everything you do!

At 7:35 pm, Anonymous Izzy said...

I finished reading your book a few days ago, I've never read one so fast in all my life. You really are an inspiration to everyone. It was shocking to read how you suffered but amazing to read how you over came it and how strong a fighter you are.
You should be very proud of your self.
Best wishes for the future.

Isobel- 17
Bognor Regis

At 7:58 pm, Anonymous blockers said...

Hiya Anya, I found your book a total inspiration to anyone who has ever had anything happen to them. Like alot on this page, I too, was bought your book for my birthday and took only a few hours to read it but couldnt put it down. You show such great courage and strength to have come through the other side. You should be VERY proud of yourself and never doubt any of your decisions that you make. I wish you only happiness and peace, to have all you desire and all that you truely deserve nothing less. You will help so many people out there who dont know which way to turn or are in turmoil and you will show them they can do it. Thanks again. Yours admiringly Jane x

At 10:33 am, Blogger Wendy said...

Hi Anya
I read your book and through the tears I felt your pain. You have strived to get through this nightmare and your book is an inspiration to many (me included). Like many, I have found your book full of courage and would one day like to share my story.
Happy new year to you and may you continue to write books that inspire.

Wendy - Relocated to Australia from Harrow UK

At 12:11 pm, Blogger colgate69 said...

hi anya i`ve just finished your book .I so happy you found a way out of your nightmare its so difficult some times escape from your past when you carry it around everyday . I hope that you find peace and happieness .I to am trapped in my own nightmare everyday a struggle with the past. the guilt i fell for doing nothing consumse me. I hope to tell my story one day as i fell it is my only way out. I not sure i have the courage right now its something i spent so mush time trying to forget and its all such a jumble in my head. I hope you read this because you have given me hope thank you xxxx colgate69

At 1:42 pm, Anonymous titch said...

hiya anya
i would just like to say i have just finished your book like most other people that have and i am truely inspired by you. the book brought tears to my eyes and a lump to my throat. its a heart breaking story, and its really hard for me to get my head round that it was real and this actually happened to you and you havent come out of it a druggie or an alcholic. i am so happy for you that even typing this is giving me a lump in my throat, i am so glad you come out of it and you are making a life for yourself and your becoming stronger everyday.
you are an inspiration to all people who have been through similar things to you. your proving that you dont have to turn to drugs and drink, even though i can imagine it would have been very easy to.
you really should be proud of yourself, i am proud of you and i dont even know you, but after reading your book, i feel like i do.
i hope the new yr brings you every luck in the world.
Lindsey from Castleford

At 2:30 pm, Blogger Kleopatra Garifalou said...

Hey Anya,

I bought your book on Sunday and i finished it last night. I couldnt put it down!

I cant believe that in 2006 we still have people in your situations. when i was reading it i thought that it was mabe 30 years ago so when i read the top part of you page and seen it was in 2006 i nearly died!

Before reading ur book i thought i was so hard done by with things that have went on in my past but after it i reilised that i was really lucky to have what i have and i felt kinda selfish, Im only 19 and came though a lot but not half as much as what you have.

I wish you good luck for the future. Please can you write on your page and tell us what your planning to do with your life now. i would be really interested in hearing about you in the future.


At 11:11 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Guess I'm like a long list of people who have just finished your book and found myself here..
I am a social worker here in Scotland and hope that through my job I can help some of the innocent children who potentially, like you, face a life that no child should ever experience.
Your words, strength and ability to overcome the childhood torn from you has shown that it is possible to break the so called cycle of abuse and I wish you all the best in the future!!

At 1:04 pm, Blogger kate21 said...

hi anya. i jus wanna say u r an amazin person! iv jus finished ur book and like many other books iv read about ppl in the same situations,i cried,but with yours i cried sad tears at the beginning and happy tears at the end. it makes me and other think about r own lives and realise we should'nt take things 4 granted,and you have shown that ppl in situations like yours,can come out on top and hopefully in the future b happy. thank u so much4 writing that book, its made me feel proud of u! good luck with the future anya,u r truly inspirational! all the best xxx

At 1:29 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Anya,

First of all May I wish you all the very best for 2008. I am sure after everything you have already overcome this year is going to be good to you!

I have just finished reading your book I couldn’t put it down. It made me cry and it broke my heart at the thought of what you went through.
I was very fortunate to have a very happy childhood but my own mother wasn’t so lucky and I know she still finds it hard to talk about even now. May I say how privileged I feel to have read about your life

I do not know you yet part of me feels like I do. You truly are inspirational. You have made me realise that no matter what life throws at us we can all make it.
You should be very proud of yourself and your inner strength to tell your story.

Never has one book made me feel like your book did. Keep safe Anya and keep writing.

May you always have a rainbow after every storm and may you always have an Angel by your side!


At 11:12 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Happy New Year Anya!
Wishing you the very best for 2008! Hope that this year would be a fruitful one for you and good luck for everything....


At 9:02 pm, Blogger sar said...

hi Anya, i have just finished reading your book and came straight here to sift slowly through the blogs. Just wanted to say what an amazing conrast there is between 'then' and 'now' after reading your new years blog (the first one i came across!). congratulations on all you have achieved, you are an amazingly strong woman and an inspiration to many, many people, thankyou

At 8:32 pm, Blogger patricia said...

hi anya iv just read your book im 50 and had a terrible childhood i was a prostitute at 9 for someone i trusted i have a good life now and iv always told my children my life began when they were born iv never told a living sole so im not as brave as you but my god i admire you i wish light in your life and may the angels walk beside you i hope one day i can talk about what happend to me please send some of your strength but i learned from you i shouldnt be ashamed it was them that hurt me thank you anya god bless pat

At 12:33 pm, Blogger Fejay said...

i just rad an article from reader's digest about ur lifestyle... i was deeply impressed about how you survived every other day. i salute.

At 5:23 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Anya,
I have just finished reading your book it. I am only 13. It made me feel so lucky to have a caring family! I am glad you got your self back to together. Keep your head high and keep happy! Good luck!

At 4:44 pm, Blogger KAZ said...

Hi Anya,
just finished ur book, id like to wish u all the look in the world for the future. As a mum of 2 daughters i cant imagine for a minute wat u went through,im crying just writing this thinking of u. U are amazing, all the best take care of urself x x.
Karen,Bradford,West Yorkshire

At 6:22 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

i'm 15.and live in singapore.i read a book and it relates me to you.well,i guess i have lots to learn from you...coping with this much..your story really pulled me when i almost commited sucide.may god bless you.


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