WanderingScribe

Feb, 2006. For the past five months I have been living in a car at the edge of woods — jobless and homeless and totally unable to find a way out. I can't sing, I can't dance, I can't scream loudly enough, but I can read and write. So here I am laying down tracks...hopefully the start of an online paper trail out of here. (Update: Miracles happen....if you are reading my story I am part of your proof.)

Friday, August 07, 2009

Sonnet

Not sure why, but this poem spoke to me today.

Sonnet to Orpheus

Oh you gentle ones, every once in a while step
into the breath that is indifferent to you,
let it be parted on your cheeks,
behind you it trembles, reunited.

Oh you blessed ones, oh you whole ones,
you who seem to be the beginning of the hearts.
Bow of arrows and target of arrows,
your smile beams eternally with tears.

Do not fear to suffer the heaviness,
give it back to earth's weight:
heavy are the mountains. Heavy are the oceans.
Even what you planted as children,
the trees, have long become too heavy;
you could not carry them.
But the breezes... but the spaces...

21 Comments:

At 1:15 am, Anonymous SuperJoyce said...

i read your article from an old reader's digest released last february 2008 that was lent to me by a friend.

as i was reading it, i felt like was in your shoes.

i admire your courage and humility in sharing your story to the world.

hope to hear from you!

email me @ sweet_orange007@yahoo.com

best wishes anya! ☺☺

 
At 5:05 pm, Anonymous Nati said...

Hello Anya!
I am from Portugal, and today i finished your book "Abandoned". You are very courageous and an exemple for us. Congratulations to you.

 
At 9:52 am, Blogger Zoe Hannam said...

hi Anya, i am in australia and have just finished your book, i couldnt put it down, i so wanted to know how you ended up and was so pleased you got back on your feet. love to you
zoe

 
At 12:40 pm, Blogger Sue said...

Hi Anya,
I have just finished reading your book and found it very compelling!
I admire your courage in telling your very personal story and your resilience in surviving your tragic circumstances. You truly are an amazing woman to have turned your life around like you have.
I wish you all the best life has to offer in your future...

 
At 3:04 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

anya ,
i could not stop reading your . it made be cry .
your a very very brave girl .
and you have given hope to alot of people .
take care . from a very small town girl , in the USA .
have you read about anther surviver of child abuse , the book is called a child named it .
also very sad . and a true story .
it really amazes me how children survive such abuse .
bless you
. heidi

 
At 8:36 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

dear anya, i've just finished reading your boook and i just wanted to say i'm so very glad that you're doing well now and found a way out of homelessness. no one should have to go through what you did. take care and stay well, lots of love, nikki

 
At 10:17 pm, Blogger fallenangel said...

Anya,
i brought you book yesterday, and have sat up during early hours of the morning just trying to finish it. I actually couldn't put it down. Im new to this whole blogging thing, and i guess i find it hard to write down everything i feel, i guess i must of learnt to block things off, too. Your an amazing insperational woman, and I really, really look up to you in many ways. You made it through all the horrors of your childhood, and I can't even explain how much your book made me cry. A bit of a random comment, but hey.

Congratulations.
on making it through, :) x

 
At 11:04 am, Blogger PoemWriter said...

Hello Anya, its Tegan here from Australia.
I was meant to write to you a long time ago telling you that I absolutely love your book and read it about 5 times in a row.
Its just so full of emotion that i cant tear my eyes from each page.

Thankyou for taking the time to read my comment and it would be appreciated if i got a reply :)

yours sincerely

Tegan Waters Xx

 
At 1:37 am, Blogger michelle84 said...

Hi ANya, my name is michelle and i am in New Zealand, just wanted to say what a heck of a inspirational person you are!!

I started your book at 7.30pm the other night and finally finished it at just after half past midnight. i couldnt put it down.

have you kept in touch with your parents, mum etc and did they read your book??

Michelle from down under

 
At 12:51 pm, Blogger Unknown said...

Hi. I am a student from Singapore. Since i will be taking the National Exam, PSLE, this year, my mum got all the reder's digest magazines she could find and asked me to read them, so as to expose me to more beautiful writing. When i read your article, i felt touched. I want to wish you all the best in all that you do and i want to wish you ALL THE BEST again. KEEP GOING!!!!!! :-)

 
At 4:12 pm, Anonymous Emma Lazenby said...

Hi Anya,
I finished reading your book last night it was an amazing read. touched my heart completely. hope everything is good with u xxxx emma x

 
At 4:35 am, Blogger Unknown said...

hello.
know about your story and blog through the reader's digest. i hope that everything is getting well.

 
At 12:39 pm, Blogger Crystal said...

Hi Anya... my mum brought your book 'Abanoned'and gave it to me to read once i started i could not put the book down.
I hope alot of luck for you in the future as you deserve it. You are a very strong and an amazingly insperational woman. Your story touched my heart in many ways, and brought me to tears.
I'd just like to know if you ended up getting intouch with your family and what you'r plans for the future are?

Good Luck Crystal xxx

 
At 1:31 pm, Anonymous Rainbow said...

Hi WS,

I found and bought your book just before this weekend and, once started, couldn't put it down until I'd finished it.

I've since read your blog from top to bottom (or even bottom to top) and you are a truly remarkable person as well as an incredibly talented writer.

I can't describe how I felt reading what you've been through all your life and I just can't imagine how you have felt living with it all.

I also want to thank you for leading me to this site and showing me a way of 'off-loading'. I have 'scribbled' many things over the years but, until now, I've had no way of putting the jigsaw together so I can see clearly where the missing pieces are.

I know you're probably a very busy lady now but I honestly do wish you all the very best for the future and hope you manage to keep adding to your blog.

Love and best wishes,
Rainbow

 
At 9:09 pm, Anonymous loopymoo33@yahoo.co.uk said...

hello anya
your book has inspired me, a while ago i felt like i had no fight left in me, stress at home stress everywhere felt as though it was consuming my life and swallowing me up. Then a colleague at work lent me your book, and instead of stress consuming my life your book did, it is amazing. i now feel strong and confident that inside each and everyone of us is an indwelling power to fight and survive and get through the dark. it is true that when you feel that things cannot get any worse something happens that picks you up and makes you get out of bed and survive the day. i am sad that you went through such a horrible time but you are a becon of hope to all of us.
thankyou anya for sharing such an amazing and personal experience . i am sure it was very difficult to write.
yours sincerely
sarah murphy

 
At 11:54 pm, Anonymous Heather said...

Hi Anya...I am from The United States...New York State and I have just finished reading Adandoned and I was very touched by your courage even though you had such a hopeless situation. I am a bit depressed right now about my own life but I have never had the problems that you have so successfully come through. I am thankful for what I have aned my problems pail in comparison to what you have been through. Thank you for sharing about your life and about your experiences because they are such an inspiration to anyone who would read them. I wish you continued good luck as new good things keep happening to you. Always remember that God never gives us more than we can handle and also that He has a reason for everything. Good luck and keep writing.

 
At 8:29 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello Anya!
I am from Portugal, of arquipelago in the Azores, I am only 15 years but have read your book and have loved you! Have loved you by its strength, by the way she has dealt with everything that happened!
I love your book, congratulations!
For the Portuguese must do a work on a book and I will present its "abandoned," I hope to be the height.

Everything good for you :D
p.s.-sorry if my English is not the best, I don't speak very well.

 
At 9:03 pm, Blogger liz said...

Hi, I have just finished with your book and hope your staying on the right path. Although i found it hard to read i could relate to some of the things u have been through. As a child I was in care and supposedly protected. Like you i encountered sexual abuse from an early age. Through my teenage years and early 20's i flitted from violent and abusive relationships. I found my current partner 7 yrs ago and although its a very good relationship the past events left me very depressed and i found it hard to break away from it and ended up having a breakdown. I still find it hard today knowing who i am and sometimes where i belong. Anyway enough about me, I just want u to know your not the only one out there that has had a very difficult past and im really glad u have come out the other side fighting. Good on you. All the best.

 
At 9:09 pm, Blogger liz said...

Hi, I have just finished with your book and hope your staying on the right path. Although i found it hard to read i could relate to some of the things u have been through. As a child I was in care and supposedly protected. Like you i encountered sexual abuse from an early age. Through my teenage years and early 20's i flitted from violent and abusive relationships. I found my current partner 7 yrs ago and although its a very good relationship the past events left me very depressed and i found it hard to break away from it and ended up having a breakdown. I still find it hard today knowing who i am and sometimes where i belong. Anyway enough about me, I just want u to know your not the only one out there that has had a very difficult past and im really glad u have come out the other side fighting. Good on you. All the best.And well done fro the strength and courage that u have shown

 
At 11:44 pm, Anonymous debbie said...

Anya, i hope you can read this, i am an noly child who had a very loving upbringing, i dont read alot but i could not put your book down. I have a little girl and it has made me give my all into making sure she would never feel any of the trauma you did. Her dad and I are seperated and it has made me extra vidulant around my partner being with her, i dont want to appear paranoid but i will do all i can to make sure that she does not suffer as you have, you are so brave and although i wanted you to report this sooner it must have been so hard. Since reading your book i have since given food to the homeless and i will definatly do this at xmas for them. I feel so touched by your story and would be more than happy to help you with a little money if ever you are so stuck again. wih much love, Debbie XXX

 
At 8:12 am, Blogger Crystal said...

Hi Anya, i finished reading your book Abandoned yesterday. U are just an amazing girl and i wish u all the best. May God bless u everyday of your life. Be stong and be happy. Yr book made an impact in my life. take care!

 

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