Feb, 2006. For the past five months I have been living in a car at the edge of woods — jobless and homeless and totally unable to find a way out. I can't sing, I can't dance, I can't scream loudly enough, but I can read and write. So here I am laying down tracks...hopefully the start of an online paper trail out of here. (Update: Miracles happen....if you are reading my story I am part of your proof.)

Saturday, August 23, 2008

Food for thought

When things get to me I cook. When they really get to me I bake. Yesterday I baked TWO egg custard tarts - which, warm, has got to be the ultimate comfort food — and a loaf of banana bread. Then I settled in, with several mugs of builders tea, to finish the book I am reading - The Road Home by Rose Tremain.

Almost every novel I have read recently has increased my desire and — more and more — my confidence, to write. If writing were that simple everybody would be doing it, but sometimes you read a book that makes it seem so easy. The Road Home is one of them - Tremain definitely manages to make it seem that way. Maybe my response is because it deals with homelessness and surviving on the edges of society - things which are still fresh in my mind; and so I feel I could have written something similar from experience rather than imagination. In places it almost feels like writing-by-numbers, which after the brilliance of Music and Silence I almost don't dare write. Of course it isn't...But because of my own experience of it all, the fact that for all those months I walked such a similar walk to the main character in the book, it seems so.

Maybe that is why the plot felt so visible at times. I always had the feeling of knowing what was coming next. It spoiled it for me a bit. Answering questions raised in a novel before the plot reveals them to you, and anticipating surprises is part of the pleasure of reading, but I felt the answers came a bit too easily here (robbing me of the satisfaction of the penny-dropping moment coming after the appropriate amount of head-scratching). Who am I to say though - it was definitely a moving read, and kept me engaged with the characters and wanting to know what happened next right to the end. And Rose Tremain is Rose Tremain — every line of her should be read, and I couldn't even dream of writing that well. It has even won the Orange prize for fiction, so what do I know....Maybe you need a book like that to come along to give you that extra bit of confidence that you can do it yourself... Or maybe the craft always shows through the story when you look for it as closely as I have probably been doing since I put my own story into words - something, subconsciously, I had probably been 'writing' in my head my whole life, since childhood. Anyway, it has confirmed the fact that I want to write more than I want to do anything. Nothing comes closer to that feeling of sitting alone in a room and loosing yourself in writing and it all coming together... I want to do that more than anything. Not the kind of book Abandoned is, but to write books that people want to curl up with. There can't be a pleasure greater than that.

Though egg-custard tart sometimes comes close...

In case I've wettted your appetite, here's my recipe:

250g (9oz) sweet, shortcrust pastry (you can make it or buy Just-Roll shortcrust pastry)
2 egg yolks, beaten — for sealing the pastry case
75g (3oz) caster sugar
8 egg yolks
570ml (1 pt) double cream
freshly grated nutmeg
20cm (8") fluted flan tin

Preheat oven to 180/350/mark 4. Line the flan tin with the pastry and cover with greaseproof paper. Fill with uncooked rice (or baking beans if you have them) to keep the pastry flat. Place the pastry case in the oven and bake 'blind' until it starts to brown around the edges. Remove from the oven. Carefully lift out the greaseproof paper and baking beans before replacing the pastry case in the oven. Once the base starts to colour, remove from the oven and brush the pastry all over with the 2 beaten egg yolks to seal any cracks. Return to the oven and as soon as the egg yolk mix is cooked repeat the process twice more to ensure that the pastry case is totally sealed. Finally, remove from the oven and set aside.

Turn the oven right down to 120/250/ mark 3/4 and proceed to make the filling. Whisk the sugar and 8 egg yolks together in a bowl. Bring the cream to the boil in a saucepan, then take off the heat and pour over the egg yolks and sugar, whisking well. Pass through a fine sieve (if you have one) into a jug. Leave to cool slightly and skim off any bubbles from the surface.
To bake the tart, place the baked pastry case on a baking sheet and put into the oven (it is much easier to fill the case once it is in the oven - it avoids any spills!) Carefully pour the filling into the case. Grate fresh nutmeg over the top and bake for 45-50 minutes. Keep checking as the tart cooks. You are aiming for the filling to be just set, but slightly wobbly in the centre. Remove from the oven and leave to cool. Don't put in the fridge as this will change the texture. (But I any leftovers put in the fridge will taste even better the next day).
Now, dim the lights, draw the curtains, turn the lock and settle down to eat it undisturbed with a good read and a glass of something cold. Some things are not for sharing. Enjoy!

If you have any favourite recipes you would like to share, add them here as a comment, or email them: I'm collecting recipes at the moment...the luminous yellow notebook I used to keep recipes in, and which was bursting with torn-out recipes from magazines and newspapers over the years, and scribbled with ones people had given or cooked for me, disappeared with all the rest of my stuff in storage. So now I'm starting again— making a new one — and since there are readers of this blog from so many countries there must be some really interesting foods. I'm sure everyone has at least one meal they love to cook, one recipe they think is perfect and would be able to cook on a desert island.

There are eggs, potatoes and onions, a few slivers of ham, some slightly greenish cheese, and half a loaf of homemade olive-bread in my fridge. Anyone got a good recipe for tortilla? Or maybe Quesilladas?


At 7:21 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Anya i have just read your book,i couldnt put it down,i read it in half a day,i just think you are so inspirational,and a wonderful person,you are so strong,and im so pleased you have had a happy end,it has made me think about people i see out and about that look down on their luck,i will continue reading your blog,hope you are well xxxxx

At 11:51 am, Blogger acoustickid said...

you just made me want to have a taste of everything you've baked (and, perhaps, those which you're about to)
; )

At 3:05 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ive just finished reading your book and i find u a truly amazing lady , i wish i had half the amount of courage you, i am so happy you managed to turn your life around and hope by reading your book it gives others who have experienced any of what you have gone through to do the same!!! xx

At 8:31 am, Blogger eVelyN== said...

Hi, i am from Singapore and i just got to read your story in Reader's digest February issue.

WOW all i could say is that it was really amazing, divine and timely! i will definitely go grab the book and introduce your story to my friends to encourage them!

I am very encouraged by your story and i pray that you will live a even greater and blessed life ahead!

all the best. Best wishes!

Evelyn :D

At 2:50 pm, Blogger 28 na sala said...

Hi, I'm a portuguese girl, and I have 11. I read your boock. It's fantastic!!! I love it! A kiss by Inês.

At 12:02 am, Anonymous Michelle said...

I read your book last week and your book compeled me to visit your blog. I am glad you are out of your 'tight spot' and have had a 'happily ever after'. I hope you are still in touch with your family eventhough they let you down... hope all is well. Michelle frm Cornwall, UK. xxx

At 5:14 am, Anonymous Gina said...

Hi Anya,
I just finished reading your book. WOW it was great, i couldn't put it down, i was so touched by it. i have so much admiration and respect for you. i'm so glad that your life has turned around. i'll continue reading your blog. Stay safe
Gina from Australia

At 6:24 pm, Blogger Sheila said...

Hello, I am portuguese, I have 14 years and I read your book in two days, loved, is wonderful!
Congratulations for the book.


At 4:19 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hello! I just discovered your blog beacuse I read that article about you in Reader's Digest.
I'm from Mexico and I'll e-mail you that Quesadillas -actually, not Quesilladas hahaha- recipe.

I love all your story, please keep writing!!

At 9:37 am, Blogger EleLou Primitives said...

Hi Anya, I've just finished reading your book and I wanted to say that you must be a very strong person to have gone through all of that and come out at the other end still sane. I love your recipe for the custard tarts, one of my favourite foods. You were asking for a recipe for tortilla. I use an authentic Spanish one. Just slice your potatoes and throw them in your frying pan until they are soft and golden brown, mix up your eggs with a fork and throw them in on top of your potatoes and when they have set on the underside you can either turn your tortilla over (I flip mine over using a plate over the top of the frying pan), or, bung the whole lot under a grill still in the frying pan until the top is nice and golden. If you wanted to you could always throw in your onion with the spuds and pop the ham on top before you turn your tortilla. I've made myself feel hungry now too, so I'd better go and investigate the inside of my fridge. I love making something from the odds and ends left in the fridge. As they say, necessity is the mother of invention!!
I wish you all of the luck in the world and a happy life. You deserve it. Pam A
PS I'm putting a link to your blog on mine if that is OK with you.

At 3:52 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Anya,I have read your book and I liked a lot.. I thought it is a good book and I recommend everyone to read it because it demonstrates a lot of courage of your part in never to give up on struggling for a better life and of trying that somebody you of that some attention,like any human being deserves and you are not exception... I think a lot of people if he read your book will begin to not to be so selfish and he/she will begin in wanting to help the others that really need help...
I am happy for knowing that you are well and that little by little and few your life is going getting better... he/she continues to have force and never give up on struggling for that you really want and you deserve...
It rebels me to know that you went an unhappy child and somebody that hurt you so much existed did to feel an upset in his/her life...

kisses from Cláudia and never give up and be a strong girl...

At 6:36 pm, Blogger Alania said...

Hi Anya, as maybe you know today, august 31th, is BLOGDAY2008, anda I've read about yours in the magazine Reader's Digest of this month, I really was wondered abput your story and wanted to share it with other people, I'm from Mexico, and I wrote a sinapsis about you and your story at my blog.
Have a nice life!
Sorry about my english, I'm still learning your language.

..:: Alania ::..

At 9:28 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Anya
I have just finished reading your book and came upstairs to visit your blog to see how things are still changing for you.
I find you a truly amazing person for having turned yourself around after having so much physical and emotional trauma in your life, especially in the early years - no child should ever have to go through that, and I marvel at your lack of bitterness towards your uncle for his actions and towards all those who played such major parts in your depression/breakdown.
You are so inspirational, and you deserve all the good things that life can give you. Those of us who have been so fortunate as not to be touched by such harrowing life events would do well to remember just how lucky we are (there but for the grace of god?)
I wish you continued strength and happiness.

At 12:53 am, Blogger shortbread34 said...

Hi Anya, I truly think your strength and resillience is amazing.Coaxing yourself to continue the struggles alone just so you could find a head above the dark clouds, find a way of finding youself , your true self again was inspirational. Just reading your struggles made me feel my worries were so insignificant, but being a newly qualified counsellor I know that everyones issue is theirs and relative to who they are and how they feel in this world........Feeling alone, feeling neglected, feeling hurt, feeling different, feeling like we dont belong, hoping for someone to notice, someone to care,someone to validate our existence, even someone just to smile in recognition of our pain.... so many of us have experienced this in our lives and noticed that through all the harship ,facing of the demons, accepting our pain,accepting what we have become is always the hardest part.
Reading your story has been truly inspirational and with evry page I prayed that you would one day tackle the torment you had to hide away. As I read you finding this blog, my heart almost exlpoded.........a true inspiration for anyone who feels that the darkness in life has left them too tired to fight!!!

Caroline x

At 7:13 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

On holiday in sunny hot Cyprus, the best place on earth. Soul searching still after 30yrs to find answers to the Whys?? reading book after book about various abuse and ill treatment in childhood. I read Abandoned and it reached deep into my soul, the same soul that was too abandoned and blamed for having the gaul to be born. Anya if you read this you have the strength to conquer the world, infact you have touched so many souls already. One day it will be my turn, one day all that strength and courage will pay off and life will make sense. Much love to you, Louise xxx

At 7:36 pm, Anonymous Imelda said...

ok i dont have a good english level, im from México , and I saw your history in Selecciones,and I just want to tell you that , miracles are real, and you can had one in your life , so you're blessed.
Now your life is good, so be happy !!!

At 8:49 pm, Anonymous Marisa said...

hello Anya, I have just read your book right now, I read it in a day. I had never before happened. I am Portuguese, and my English is not very good. I came here just to give a word of support. his story is unbelievable, but you are a very strong person (I do not know how it was able to withstand all this, my sincere congratulations).
Excuse the errors of spelling, but I wanted to leave a word of support. Many Kiss, and strength. Marisa (Portugal, Sintra)

At 2:13 pm, Blogger danielacrispim said...

Hi Anya!!! I from Portugal and I have 14 years old... I love your Book is a spectacular history.... Kiss D

At 10:38 am, Anonymous icar said...

hi..i'm from the philippines and i read ur story from my boyfriend's RD feb 2008 issue..i was moved by ur story nd until now i love retelling it to my friends...honestly it made me cry...i live w/ my parents all my life nd i cant wait for them to allow me to live alone..but when i came across ur story..it made me realize that i am so blessed..i am so happy to know that you are not homeless anymore...i wish you all the best..you're such a strong woman...count on God always...stay strong..:-D

At 10:40 am, Anonymous Anouska&Nequinhas said...

Hello Anya!

my name is...Ania!:) and i´m from portugal. i´ve read your book about a month ago and i´ve read it in two nights! it´s so intense and full of feelings...i´ve cried, laughed and thought about you for so many days! I´ve come from a family of 5 brothers and sisters, we´re 22 cousins and it´s so hard to think that a child, a baby can go trough such a hell and how can exist people in this planet able to do such things and hurt so much...

i´m 25 now and i´m a mother of 2 with another baby coming. i have a stepson with 7 and i could never ever see him in other way than also my son! he was 2 when i start dating his father. he now call me his friend and he is so sweet. i have another boy with 15 months and i live for him! i just can´t imagine hurting him or make him unhappy...that´s the way i am. i love to hug, to see them smile and know/feel they are happy child in this worl sometimes so cruel and painful!

this way i cried even more reading you...i just can´t conceive that you have to go trough all that! well ok, it´s gone with the wind, it made you the person you are now, don´t know how but a such kind, peaceful and sweet woman! sometimes i get sad with my troubles but in the end it´s all so insignificant! i wish i had the love of my mother, i cried so much for her and for just one kiss but i had such a great life! and i still have! i can sleep without nightmares or close my eyes without seeing images or remenber such things...

thank you for sharing your story with us! and please keep writing!without thinking of how you shoul write and that stuff of chapetrs! just let it flow, you have a natural gift and you don´t neeed to think before you write! that´s a true and unique gift and it´s so good to be able to know you!

sorry but i had to say all this!(and so much more...)

hope you finnaly can feel some peace inside you and hope you canfollow your road in a light and coloured way!


At 1:34 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi Anya i have just finished reading your book and wow what a turely inspiring story i was glad to see you came out hte other side evelyn from northern ireland

At 7:13 pm, Anonymous Branko said...

Hello Anya. I'm a 16 year old boy living in Sweden.. I've just read yuor book, and i reallyloved it.. there were some horrible moments in it, but it was great. Everyone in my class wants to read it

At 8:25 am, Blogger cinders said...

Hi Anya, i have just finished reading your book.
OMG i think you are so brave and courageous, i didnt feel much anger coming from you there!! why?? i would have been so angry.
I thought my childhood was awful and i have spent the last 30 years or so being so angry, but your book has made me realise i have nothing to be angry about, you on the other hand have.
After the first few chapters i felt really sick and didnt want to carry on but i did so i would like to wish you all the best for your future.
Sorry im hopeless at writing and putting fellings into words.

At 5:20 pm, Blogger Wondir said...

Hey, i just readed and article on Readers Digest, what is writed on u, and that touches. Yeah! Ill have to read your book, if it would be translated in Finnish ;p

Best lucks!

At 5:35 pm, Anonymous Jakki, Plymouth said...

Hi Anya, I have just finished your book and it gave me such hope. When i was younger i went through something similar with my uncle and have always thought it hard talking about my feelings as i have always felt like no one would understand. just reading your book made me remeber that i am not the only person to go through this and the feelings i have some times are perfectly normal and im not losing control and i want to thank you for that. you are an amazing person for all you went through and i want to wish you all the luck for the future xx

At 1:13 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi anya..just wondering how old u are right now? know what i just found out your novel abandoned, and i had read it for just 2days..which for me thats something! my normal span of reading novel is a week or two...
i really had much reason to finish it early...ur story is so encouraging. somehow it reminds me that never to give up with evrything that you are going thru...and someday ull see light!
its me babez from philippines.

At 7:01 pm, Blogger Maharet said...

two years later i check in to see how you're doing. glad to see you're well! :)

At 5:57 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Anya,
I've just finished your book in 2 evenings after work and it actually made me thankful to have a job even though sometimes I get stressed with it! I'm so pleased you're back on your feet and seem to have found your calling in life. Keep up the optimism and be proud of what you've overcome. I hope in the future you find your soul mate as then you'll have all the 'family' you need.

I'll keep checking out your blog and hope you will go on to write more books in the future as I think you have a natural talent that shouldn'tbe wasted,


Mandy(Doncaster, England) x

At 3:53 pm, Anonymous Sara said...

Hey Anya,i read bt ur journey n how it lead 2 ur book in Reader's Digest..
thought of checking it out myself today..after readong all that i just HAVE to get that book of urz..what u went through n what it led 2 makes me feel proud as a woman...
Just want 2 tell u that ur story has reaches as far as Pakistan...yep thats where im writing from..i jst hope i can get ur book out here...will write more soon...tc

Sara(Islamabad, Pakistan)

At 2:19 pm, Blogger David said...

Hi Anya. I just read your book and I have to say that it is a very strong person and was able to give the signal of strength to people who may be in the same situation.
Congratulations :)

David, Portugal.

At 12:51 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Dear Anya,

I have read your book today - literally devoured it in one sitting.

You have made me feel blessed. Thank you for sharing your experience.

I hope that life continues to improve for you, that you find what you are looking for, and things continue to shine.

Thank you from the bottom of my heart for reminding me of what is important.

Felicity Shields (Banbury, Oxon)

At 3:26 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I can't describe how your book inspired me, it made me open my eyes to real problems with real people. Your courage and bravure to hang on in the conditions you've lived are just amazing! I don't think I can survive to a little part of what you've been. Everything you've been trought its just unhuman, I'm 18 years old and i know that most of the times, when I'm happy, another child is being abused in other home or someone is thinking about how to survive in the worst conditions, but when I've read your experience, somehow you put the feelings, the desires and specially the emotions you've passed on me, and I thank you for that, you are an exemple that if we want, we can do, we can win.
My best wishes to you, you really, really deserve it.

At 7:02 pm, Blogger Maiik.! said...

Hi Anya.. i'm from Argentina... i read your history in Reader's Digest.. woooo you're so courageus! i'm so Impressed...

i wish the best for u.
kisses and a big hug!

At 4:12 pm, Blogger Dani. said...

Hello, I'm from Argentina and lei something of your blog seemed beautiful to me, because I read an article in a magazine that left your blog. The truth shocked me.

At 3:47 am, Anonymous Rosa Barbosa said...

Hi Anya. I´m from Argentina, and I have read your story in Reader´s Digest too. It´s difficult to write all I wish to say. I just say you: GO ON, you can get anything you want. GOD BLESS YOU I send you all my best wishes. Rosita B.

At 10:25 pm, Blogger Aurelio said...

Hallo Anya.
I´m from Formosa, Argentina.
I knew about you through Reader's Digest. I was so touched.
Good luck in your new life.

At 11:05 am, Anonymous Sammi said...

Hello Anya,

I have just finished reading your book & just want you to know that it was truely amazing to read, I couldn't put it down!
I can relate to you in so many ways it frightened me & has taght me a lot about myself. Not about your homlessness, but about your personallity & what you have been through in your life. I am also living very similar to how you are now, i have the internet and am always up for talking.
You are an amazing person & very much needed in the world, don't ever let anyone tell you otherwise & always remember life is never that bad ok...
I've just created my blog, my blog name is butterfly84, and my name is Sammi.
Hugs & Kisses & lots of love,
Sammi. xxxxxx

At 3:38 am, Blogger ForgottenGardener said...

I found you blog yesterday. i goggled wandering and their you where. I read the whole thing last night and today. It was griping. You have helped me to start my own Blog Forgotten Gardner. It will be a outlet for me. I feel that i am a outsider. even in my own home I wish you well a hope to read your book some day. I hope you do wright another book. It seems to me that you should do what is in your heart.
Thank You
Forgotten gardner

At 4:41 am, Anonymous W@!ting4thrainbow said...

I just wanted 2 let u know how much reading your blog helped me...
So heres the thing ive been going througth a hard time lately myself, and problably not as abad as u did, Ive just moved away from home on january, I came to study to a hole new country, and lately its been so hard, and ive been feeling so alone...i had a hard childhood too and sometimes its really hard 4 me to trust people...a few weeks ago I made a blog and started writing...its a great feeling, I can write anything from my deepest feelings to the most dumb things and remain anonymous...

anyways, I was just alone walking down the street at night and i decided to stop and buy something to read, and I just read your article on Readers Digest, I just wanted to let you know that it really made me feel better to know that im not the only one who has gone throught a moment when you feel your life its falling apart...And im so glad to know that youre doing so good know...it also gives me lots of hope...i think what youve done its great...even if it wasnt intentional...and youre an amazing person..! good luck and thanks

At 4:56 am, Blogger DarkBaston said...

Hello Anya, I write to you from Argentina (my english is not very good, for what I have to use a translator, hope that you deal) to say to you that your history really affected me, it is incredible what you could achieve with a blog, express your feelings across and make come your history to thousands of persons is really incredible.
It me makes happy many people that already you do not have to live in your car and that your book there published, I hope that it fences in you well in the life and that you are happy.
I order you a greeting from Argentina.

At 10:43 am, Blogger mesdupmoi said...

Hi Anya. I just read your book and then sat and read through your entire blog. All I can say is that you are one hell of a strong woman to have survived what you did, and I'll bet everyone who has read either your book or your blog will say the same!

Hugs from me to you.
Lucy. xxx

At 10:33 am, Blogger conchita said...

I´m from Portugal and I read your book, my sister bought it.
I was very sad and shocked when I finished your book.
I think that anybody in the world deserves to suffer like this, it´s very cruel and I admire your courage to survive like this.
I have a blog too, but I decided that I dónt want to write anymore because I realize that I dónt have happy things to say, they are always sad things and I´m tired...
I know that my life nothing compares to yours that´s why I came here to tell in spite of my big problems there are people in the world that are very worst than me and they have the strengh and courages and never give up.
I wish you the best from the bottom of my heart :)

At 4:50 am, Blogger Sam said...

Oh my god Anya, i have just finished reading you're book and i didnt do any work at work for 2 days while i finished it. You are an amaizing person. I picked up the book by mistake from the kitchen table. My mum brought the book and i thought it was the book i was reading at the time it wasnt untill lunch when i looked at it that i realised that i didnt have the right book so i sat and started reading it and once i read the first few chapters i couldnt put it down and my mum had to wait for me to finish it before i gave it to her to read. You have made me look at my life alot different. I am not a rich person but i feel i have everything, i have a husband who i love and he loves me too and a family i can call and know that they will be their for me and i would drop everything for them. I hope you find the happiness i have found and i also hope that one day you will have the relationship with your family like i have with mine.
Please take care of your self and if you ever feel down in the dumps please get onto your blog and start reading all the message that people have left you because you have alot of support on the world wide web. Love sam :)

At 12:45 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Anya, I am portuguese, I'm 15 years and I read your book in two days, is wonderful!
I can't describe how your book inspired me, it made me open my eyes to real problems with real people. Your courage and bravure to hang on in the conditions you've lived are just amazing!

kisses and never give up and be a strong girl...

*Sara (Portugal)

At 11:00 pm, Anonymous kelly said...

Wow, I have just finished reading your book! You are such an amazing, inspirational woman! I am so happy for you for turning your life around and finding the strength to share with others! best wishes, you really deserve it! x

At 8:38 am, Anonymous AV said...

Hi Anya,

I read your book. I am glad you wrote it.

Angels exist. This is not a myth, its a reality. Its amazing when someone who has gone through so much realizes this, especially in the darkest hour. I was thrilled to see you do this in your book. I was also delighted to see such little anger. Non violence, natural or invoked, is truly the way forward.

I have a story for you, its the story about the 2 pairs of footsteps:-

One day, a man and God are walking in the desert. The man says, "God, I know that you have always been there for me because during most of my life, I always saw two pairs of footsteps in the sand. But, tell me something, why is it that whenever I was in trouble, I only saw one pair of footsteps? Where were you in time of need?"

God looks at the man and says, "Who do you think was carrying you in your time of need?"


At 10:51 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi anya!!

im17 an have just read your book i have a one year old son an havnt had time to read since he was born but went to the library the other day and found yours :D i abosolutly love your book it took me one day to read an im starting it a 2nd time today i find you truly insprational an when i have bad days all i have to think about is how you got through it all an have come out on top so i should be able to as well thank you for showing me there is hope for everyone

much love an hugss
jaimee an kaedyn from new zealand

At 4:11 pm, Blogger EleLou Primitives said...

Hi Anya, Just wanted to say that I hope you're jogging along and enjoying life. I hope that the answer is yes and that you've had no time to update your blog. They somehow become less important don't they when life is treating you kindly. Hugs, Pam

At 8:32 am, Blogger Levindas Värld said...

Hi Anya!

I´ve just finished reading your book, it only took me 2 days, I was hooked from the first sentence...

You´ve gone through so much in your life. I feel sad for you that you felt that you could not open up and talk about what happened to you in an earlier state of time, when you still were a little girl..

But you are a fighter Anya!
You found your way out, on your own, and i´m so happy that it all turned out so well for you.

I hope you´re doing well and that you now feel happy and safe.

Warm Hugs from Anna, Sweden


At 9:37 pm, Anonymous sarahmumoffive said...

Hi Anya,

I have just finished your wonderful but harrowing book. I felt as if I actually knew you in the last few chapters and I was willing everything to turn out right for you in the end. My heart was in my mouth when I was reading about you sleeping in your car... I'm so proud of what you have become and what you have acheived and I wish you all the health and happiness in the world ( if thats possible in the world as it is today!!!) and I went to sleep after reading your book imagining that you may have met me along your travels and I could have helped you - particularly when you were in the hospital surroundings as I am a nurse.
Thankyou for putting your blog address in the back of your book - I have enjoyed reading these just as much as your book. Take care in everything you do X.

At 10:55 pm, Anonymous Hannah said...

Sorry to be commenting completely off the point of this post but just to say i have read your book, last christmas actually, and throughout this year i have reread it again and again just to give me strength and to remind myself of your courage and your extrodinary story. I occasionally pop into your blog to see how you are doing and today finally decided to show my appreciation.
(by the way you are an amaxing writer with such a skill and i do believe you should publish more books, no matter what the subject, as your writing has such a fluidity and soothing calmness to it)
Take care.

At 3:45 pm, Anonymous jade crombie said...

hi Anya

i am still reading your book and decided to look you up.
i am only 15 years old and have realised how much people take for granted.
i think you have inspired alot of people and i hope you will continue to write this blog.

you must be a very strong woman to have gone through what you have to have no family to be there for you and you are still here today

i think you are a amazing person

love jade from liverpool u.k

xxx <3

At 11:07 pm, Blogger Marianela Belen Ferrari said...

hola Anya, hoy lei en un revista de argentina sobre tu historia y me parecio que es algo rarisimo,porque nadie puede vivir en un auto y vos lo lograstes.Me conmovio tu historia espero que algun dia lo puedas leer.
saluda marianela!

At 8:13 pm, Blogger Em said...

I have just finished your book - what an inspiration. I was completely engrossed and can't believe how well you have done to get through all the difficult times and experiences you had. I think you will be a strength to so many people and should be very proud. Emily, UK

At 12:08 am, Blogger vaniarod said...

hi anya!!!
my name is vania, i'm 19 and i'm from oporto, portugal!
i read you're book, actually i'm finished today!well...your story it's amazing...unforgettable...i cried many times, belive in me...
you're an example...a truelly surviver!!!
i hope you are enjoying your life,realy...write more please i will continue reading your blog!
a portuguese kiss =)
(sorry my english is not very good)

At 12:34 am, Blogger Kitty Milo said...

hi anya. my name is emily im 12 i live in new zealand. when i read ur book is was so sad and i felt reli sori for u. when i finished it i just couldn't put it down. is kathy our your mum still alive? or anyone in your family in the book? sorry to be rude but, can you please put a picture of yourself on because i would like to see what you look like=]

At 9:55 am, Anonymous Maria Skoog said...

Hi Anya!
My namne is Maria, 33 years old and I live in Sweden. Yesterday I´ve finished your book. Your story made me cry several times. I work with children 1-5 years old and I think that every teacher who work with little children should read your book because we must be more attentive to this kind of problems. Every friend of mind read your book right now.
Hope you have a great life, love Maria.

At 12:37 pm, Anonymous Alison Bond said...

I know everyone has said this but I have just finished reading your book and I just wanted to wish you luck for the future.. You have had enough bad luck to last a life time, so best of luck with the rest of your life.
Alison from Australia xx

At 1:24 pm, Anonymous Aimee said...

Can we have an update of how you're doing, please, Anya? I've been thinking of you

At 6:39 pm, Blogger jan said...

A true inspiration thankyou and god bless you.


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