Feb, 2006. For the past five months I have been living in a car at the edge of woods — jobless and homeless and totally unable to find a way out. I can't sing, I can't dance, I can't scream loudly enough, but I can read and write. So here I am laying down tracks...hopefully the start of an online paper trail out of here. (Update: Miracles happen....if you are reading my story I am part of your proof.)

Sunday, February 17, 2008

One fire and a funeral

I went to Andrew's dad's funeral on Wednesday, very sad.


At 10:02 pm, Anonymous Loz said...

Hi Anya its Lorraine after reading your book i check your blog every other day and love it when you have posted.
Do you think we will get a sequel to the book? How you are now, how you cope with day to day life? maybe in a few years eh?
Anyhow nice to talk with you,love Lorraine. xxxx

At 9:51 am, Anonymous jiahui x) said...

hi~hope you don't mind me , a stranger , leaving a comment ..i read the reader's digest and get to know this blog ;D! .. i will buy your book as i m curious xD! .. all the best to you ;D!
er..and don't be to sad too! cheer up ;D

At 7:04 pm, Anonymous Vikki said...

hi anya my name is Vikki, i have to say that i think you are a most amazing woman, the courage anddetermination you have shown through your life is amazing. i finished reading your book today and you have given me such a positive outlook in my life. I am 44 years old and i was sexually abused by my father from the age of 5 till i was 14 but i did not have to endure the physical violence that you did. You truelly are an inspiration to all women. good luck in finding your perfect future you deserve the best. If ever you need to talk or anything like that please dont hesitate to contact me, to think of you as a friend would be a honour
sincere heartfelt regards and love Vikki X

At 10:11 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

I read the book and was amazed at your strength to pull through everything. It made me realise that my problems are tiny compared to what you've been through.
You are an inspiration to all who are or have struggled in life. I sincerly hope that all you hope for in life happens for you. You deserve every bit of goodness in life.
Remember you have inspired so many people all over the world.
Your an amazing woman.
Love Stacey XXXX

At 5:02 am, Anonymous Catherine said...

Hi, Anya, I'm Catherinr from Indonesia. Thisa is the 1st time I read your blog. I have come to know your background story from the magazine 'Readers Digest', this February issue. I'm thinking about buying your book. Keep up the good work...

At 7:27 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi. I am new in here. This Is Shawn here. After reading your story on the Reader Digest, I felt than you are a brave person.Good to hear than you are will untill today. Hope you could find a home for yourself!

Shawn Tan[Singapore]

At 12:51 pm, Blogger jenn* said...

Hello Anya. I got to know about you and your blog thru reader's digest. i must say that i salute you for your determination and am truly awed by your courage. i am deeply encouraged by your story, and i am sure many others have been greatly blessed by your testimony.

At 9:39 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Anya..... i have after a full 24hours of not putting ur book down just finished reading it and as i write this i am still in tears. U are a true inspiration to all of us and i can only thank u from the bottom of my heart for somehow finding the courage and will to go on and in finding the strength to write ur book.
U have touched me in so any ways with ur feeligs, thoughts determination and sheer guts to get through wot some of us can never even start to imagine.
if ur book can help just one person anya ur words will have achieved more than some of us can hope to achieve in a lifetime.
To say that u are somehow an inspiration seems feeble but truley i dont know how else to describe u.
i wish u nothing but happiness and contentment in ur life from now on and hope against all hope that u can continue to move onwards and upwards anya ad eventally someday find everything u have so long waited for.
keep posting andkeep winning anyaxxxxx zareen xxxxxxx

At 12:23 pm, Blogger Simple Gal said...

Hi ! I read the article in Reader's Digest.. I really admire your courage .. When there's a will .. there's a way.. :)

At 12:47 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Deepest admiration.
-Someone out there.

At 9:04 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hiya anya.
i check your blog regulary now after reading your amazing book. i must say you had incredible strenght, and your book has made me think drastically about my life.

it would be a pleasure to meet you face to face as i already feel i know so much about you from your book.

you keep growing stronger and stronger each day

your friend belinda

At 4:23 am, Blogger Nga-wai said...

Hi Anya

I read your article on Reader's Digest few days ago and so I have an interest in your blog.

"There is always a way out"
I think it's the first feeling comes forth to my mind after reading your article, and blog is also amazing!!

Looking forward to your diary!

Reader from Hong Kong,

At 7:18 am, Anonymous Charmaine said...

Herrrow. I am from Singapore. I'm only 15 haha. I got 2 know your story from the Reader's Digest and man you are one strog woman (!!!) If I were in your shoes I'd probably wouldn't make it. Anyway, be happy ... I soooooooo wanna read your book yay.

At 8:04 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey there,
i've read your story in the Reader's Digest and i'm so interested to buy the book..but is there any in Malaysian bookstores???

At 11:26 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Anya, I have just finished reading your book and was really moved by your sheer determination to survive. I was really moved by your story and look forward to reading your blogs. Good luck for the future.
Tracey. xx

At 12:26 pm, Anonymous nee nee said...

Hi,i'm Joanne from M'sia.
I've just finished the article about your story in Feb Reader's Digest and get to know your blog.I'm thinking of buying your book since your story really touched me.
By the way,keep up the good work and stay strong!^^

At 11:51 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

just finished reading your book and i applauled you.you are the most amazing person i have ever read about and an inspiration to all. i was just wondering have you heard from mummy or kathy lately? i hope you do a follow up to your life story only this time i hope it has all turned around for you and you are now in charge keep your chin up and i will pray for you every day good luck in the future and god bless xx ann

At 3:25 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi Anya:) Carol here from the Philippines. I read your article in the Reader's Digest and rest as sure i'll be praying for you. God is good, all the time, always remember that. I can't wait to get a hold of you book!

At 7:28 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey wandering scribe , i heard your blog thru reader's digest and love your posts . sta strong and nvr give up hope . (:

At 8:30 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hey anya.........i've been posting comments at ur blog........but u never seem to print em........anyways maybe u aint getting em.........i felt so relieved to hear ur voice in dee audio section.......u inspire me lady!!

naima from pakistan

At 11:37 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...


At 1:14 pm, Blogger ~X~Cassie~X~ said...

hi Anya i got your book for my mum for christmas and i couldnt help but read it myself after the first chapter you just want to carry on!! your story really opened my eyes a lot i have a few problems at the moment but it is nothing to what you went through i am so naive at times thinking i have it bad when really i dont. you are a strong survivor and you should be so proud of yourself i cried reading your story i coudlt believe that someone you trust could do a thing like that i guess theres a lot of things peopel think are impossible when really they are! hope your doing well your story is a great inspiration to others! you survived and you will b stronger for it!
luv ~X~Cassie~X~ xxxxxxx

At 1:51 pm, Blogger King said...

hi anya King here! i read about your story on the february issue of readers digest asia, i was really inspired by your story. at first i cant imagine for something like that to happen to someone who's from UK, what i mean is that your country is much more progressive than mine,philippines, which is a 3rd world country. well im really happy that your all good now, your book is doing extremely well here in asia i do hope that you'll come up with a new book maybe a prequel or something?! anyways keep touching lives anya!

At 2:41 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Hi anya,

Like may people around, I have read ur book from the feb issue reader's digest and its heart-rending. I am going to buy ur book!
Good luck kays.. Stay strong. :)

At 2:52 pm, Blogger Your Deadling said...

Hello Anya .
I've read of an article about you on Reader's Digest Asia earlier on .
I must say that your life story is so much inspiring - how you handle hardships and in the end you were discovered !
So I'm dropping by to know what's your story lately .
And yes , looking forward to buying your book .
All the best !

KAZ . =]

At 5:16 am, Blogger Rui Ming said...

Erm.. hi.. I'm a stranger.. And i happened to read about your story in the Reader's Digest..
So i came..
Hope you are fine. ^^

At 6:49 am, Anonymous Pauline said...

Hello! I'm from singapore.15.Got to know your story through Reader's Digest.Well, i can say you're a strong woman, really strong.I'd would like to have a conversation with you through msn, if possible.Anyway, stay happy!

At 7:54 am, Blogger Kathe said...

Kia ora Anya
My name is Kathe and I'm writing from New Zealand. It is 8.40pm on the 23rd of Feb and I have just -this moment - finished reading your truely - wonderfully - inspiring story.
I was browsing in the book store at the airport the other day and picked up your book and read the back. I put it down and walked away. I wondered back 3 times to reread the back - cringing with what I was reading but, too intrigued to not purchase it.
You are obviously a beautiful person on the inside. I say that because your book does not bear grudge on your childhood life although you were constantly violated by so many people and by so many things.
Thank you so much for sharing your story.
I wish you all the very best for your future.
I await your sequel! :-)
Would love to hear about the direction your life has taken from this wonderful opportunity that arose from your blogging.
I aim to also slip in here to see what you're up too!!
Go well

At 9:19 am, Blogger Lorenz said...

I'm a 15-year-old guy living here in the Philippines and I got to read the article about you in Reader's Digest. I'd like you to know that i'm really happy about how things turned out to be for you! My aunt told me that I should quit blogging because it wastes my time but i'd like to think that it's a way for me to get things out of my chest! You'll never know maybe one day i'll get 'dicovered' to! :D

visit my blog anytime. :D

At 2:59 pm, Blogger Mich said...

I am just another stranger who learnt about you after reading reader's digest. You are really strong, you made me realise that in life,everything is possible so long as we don't give up. =) Hope that you can publish more books in the future. All the best.


At 5:20 pm, Anonymous jkdashing said...

Hey Anya, I don't really read Reader's Digest however I came by the article about you and I continued to read everything. You really are brave.
My idol =D
This is the first time I'm here in your blog and just after I read the article!
Hope that all is well.
I'm from Singapore, aged 14 (:

At 6:19 am, Anonymous yeng said...

Hello Anya. I am from the Philippines and another stranger who happened to read the article about you in Reader's Digest. I am so deeply moved by your story and so I dropped the mag and immediately went online just to be able to read your blog. I want to share your story to my students who are so overwhelmed by poverty that they almost felt that there is no future waiting for them. Although in many ways you are more lucky than they are because some of them have only makeshift houses made of sacks and plastics and they don't even have blankets to warm them during the night, but I know your story will somehow lift their spirit.

I salute you for your courage.

At 9:56 am, OpenID Lester Michael said...

Hiii...I found your blog in Reader's Digest. I'm from Malaysia, and I'm pretty stunned when I first read the article. I was then deluged with questions; where did you take your during that time, and what if you didn't manage to find food for dinner and such like. I do believe that situation like this a Godsend- as you mentioned it.

At 11:53 am, Anonymous NCY said...


At 6:50 pm, Anonymous Gillian Hall said...

Hi, i finished reading your book today and immediatly logged onto your blog, i am amazed at your courage and your forgivness of what happened to you in your past, you are a wonderful person who deserves only the best from now on and i hope all your future wishes come true, good luck and God bless to you..

At 7:37 pm, Anonymous Sarah Jackson said...

Hello, I am 15 years old and have recently finished reading 'abandoned'. I found it very inspirational and i admire you for writing a book about your ordeal as a child.
I decided to visit your blog after finding the link to it at the end of your book. I am intirgued about how real this has all suddenly become, the day to day diary of how you coped. I wish you all the very best, and you have my upmost respect.

Sarah x

At 10:00 am, Anonymous Salviory said...

Hi WS! I've read all of your blog entries. Truthfully, I enjoy listeningb to your stories. I'm glad that you've write to Reader's Digest. It sure is a pleasure to meet someone who has slowly gained his/her glory. (You know what I mean I hope, cause I'm only 14 this year). Anyways, I'll remain to be a fan of your's. Write more, WS, you can make my feelings go wild. :)

At 12:08 pm, Blogger Caddie said...

hi from Australia, read your book in one day today, from one survivor to another keep on the journey of healing and forgiveness. Check out the website for healing program www.mayumarri.com it changed my life and the program is in England now, Blessing Caddie x

At 1:24 pm, Anonymous Jizni said...

Hi Anya, Im Jizni from the Phils.. I read your story on Readers Digest, and found it very inspiring and touching. Here in the Philippines, many are homeless... Your story can touch their hearts and be inspired. Take care always. Continue your stories in touching hearts.

At 7:39 am, Blogger Khairul the Kukuboy said...

hi, im Khairul, a 17 year old boy from Singapore.
a few minutes ago, i took my sis's reader's digest and started reading it. so i came across your article.
well, it was very touching and i was amazed by your perseverance in life. well, hope your days are getting brighter each day. =)

At 2:41 pm, Anonymous SarahLim said...

i ditto what everyone else said! i also read about you in readers digest. i'm 16 from malaysia, and i honestly don't think i'd have the courage to do what you did.

God bless and you go girl! :)

At 5:33 pm, Blogger Guardian of Hope said...

Hi Anya,

I have just finished reading your book...and I am blown away. We have been working with poor and homeless people for the past 10 years and you have given my so much insight to how they feel. Our aim is to show people love and respect when they eventually get the courage to come for help. We do our utmost to preserve their dignity. Thank you so much for giving us a glimpse into how it really feels.

At 3:57 pm, Anonymous hunnibee said...

hi anya my name is donna and i come from a little place called risca in newport south wales this is the first time i have come to read ur blogs. i had ur book for xmas and it is only now that i have had the strength to read it because i have recently lost a very influential person in my life and i felt like i had the weight of the world on my shoulders because i felt guilty that i couldnt get therer in time to say goodbye but after reading ur book it made me realise that i dont need to feel guilty because he is here by my side like my guardian angel and i believe u have one aswell and i believe that it is ur grandmother i feel that she knew who u were that day that u met her and was proud of u and the reason i believe that she is with u is because i think she gave u some of the strength to carry on it may sound silly but thats me lol u amazed me with ur stregth and determination to write about what has happened to u and i hope one day u find someone who will love u and treat u with the respect that u deserve anya i will be logging on everyday just to see how u are and to write something to u. all my love and heart, donna xxx

At 3:38 pm, Anonymous Pristine said...

i've just seen jia hui's comment and was thinking she might be from the same country as me. I'm Pristine here from Singapore and also just read the reader's digest while i came across your story. I'm in a situation now very different from you. but somehow, i can totally feel your emotions. The way that you might have felt while homeless and there is no place or people to turn to. Somehow, i guess that life is always like that and that many things happens for a reason. i was thinking of buying your book soon! =) because i just love reading. and thank you for sharing your story with everyone else. i'm glad that blogging had helped you to brave up so much.

At 9:04 pm, Blogger dizzylizzy said...

Hey Anya
My name is Liz and im 24 i have just finished reading your book which i found was very inspirational i am currently going through counsilling to try to cope with my past i was physically and sexually abuse i suffer with depression and i went to my doctor for help. i read your book and others like it that made me realise that people are strong enough to survive and move on and i am trying to move on with my life i live with my wonderful partner and were planning to start our family i feel for once in my life that the future can be happy, i wanted to share a little of my story with you as you have been so couragious in doing so with the world and i thank you for that. i wish i could write as you do, you have real talant and i will look forward to reading more of your blogs
from liz xxx

At 11:07 pm, Blogger Jane said...

Hi Anya

I have not emailed you for ages...and I haven't read your book yet either...but I will, I promise. Hope 2008 is going well for you.

Jane x

At 8:11 pm, Blogger The Unintellectual said...

Hi Anya,

My name is Meg, from the Philippines. I just wanted to tell you how wonderful your story is. I wanted to let you know how much inspiration you've given me. I read an article about you in RD Asia. It was amazing. I plan to buy your book and I now check your blog almost everyday.

So sorry to hear about your friend's father. My condolences.

At 6:42 am, Blogger AiLing said...

Hey Anya,
I'm Ailing from Malaysia. I red your article in Reader's Digest and thought I'd drop in to say hi.

Your story was inspiring...how you manage to find refuge in blogging and writing. You're in my thoughts and prayers....hopefully you'll be able to reconcile with your family one day.

I aspired to be a writer now...but like most Asian youngsters, I'm now a medical student.

At 11:35 am, Blogger pebbles said...

hi anya

i just finished reading your book and theres nothing i can say that hasnt already been said. you are an inspiration to others and have an indomnitable spirit. i wish you peace and happiess for the future.

love tracey

At 10:27 am, Anonymous aishah_15 said...

hey im aishah from singapore.i've read your story in Readers' Digest of how you sruggled living inside your car and how you managed to publish a book based on your life story.i find it inspiring and i hope that your book can be published in singapore so that i can read your awesome story!!

At 5:56 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Your book made me cry buckets and i couldnt help but feel compassion for you!

My only hum hum was that the ending of your book was very rushed... the beginning and middle were so moving but i thought the ending wasnt keeping my feelings focussed... i found it was (as i said) rushed??

but in all i think ur a terrific person and i want to say well done!! youv'e come through such a tough childhood and i just hope life goes easy on you now :)

much love finding its way to you <<<333

Kimbers x

At 7:12 pm, Blogger Amy said...

I have just finshed reading your book - I have never read somethink that has ever really touched me as deep as your book did. It brought me tears of joy and fear ..(for little anya). I hope the future is what you wish for ..for you and your mum.
Amy - 19 // England

At 1:06 pm, Blogger barty said...

hi anya
have just finished reading your book, i think you are a very strong women to be able to relay your life in to book, i work with homeless women and understand alot of the issues you faced, keep strong

At 10:02 am, Anonymous Daphne said...

Hello Anya.
I am a 16 year old girl from Singapore. I got to know your blog after reading it from the Reader's Digest, Febuary edition.
I was really touched and inspired by your story and I really respect you for being able to not giving up despite all the horrifying things you had suffered in your past.
You made me realize how lucky I am to have such a wonderful family and friends around me.
I really hope to write as well as you do because I aspire to be an author someday.
I will be definately be buying your book from Kinokuniya.
Lots of love.Take care.

At 1:22 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Anya,i just finshed your book all i can say is HI 5 GIRL!!!! You made it and never gave up,so proud and happy you have found piece in your life. You may have those memories but look what you have gained since findig your feet again!! You are such an inspiration to many women out there, good on ya, keep that froun off your crown!! an keep that smile on your dile!!! takecare big hug from fleur over in oz!!!

At 7:09 pm, Blogger Ostrobogulous said...

Hi Anya,
I read your book with great interest and am so pleased for you that you persevered with your self belief. Life isn't the way it's supposed to be it's the way it is and we all have to make the most of what we have. If we have nothing, then we just have to dig deeper. I've dug deep many times, infact, I'm surprised I haven't popped up in bloody Australia at times!
Good luck in all you undertake in life and I wish you much happiness.

At 1:27 am, Blogger feezady said...

i've been an avid reader of your blog eversince i discovered your story in feb issue of reader's digest. it's amazing how your simple life influenced me to become a better person who now knows how to appreciate life as it comes to me. though i live on the other side of the world - i come from singapore - i guess i know what you're going through. all the best in your endeavours and take care love.

At 11:03 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Having just finished reading your truly inspiring story I decided to take a peek at your blog. Then it suddenly dawned on me that often we read books and whilst reading, the story envelopes you and grips you but once finished often they are forgotten tales. Having read your blog suddenly made it all so real and I felt deep humbleness for you and wanted to simply say how proud I feel for you to have overcome such sadness and torment in your life. You are a wonderful woman and human being and I hope that one day you receive all the love your deserve. Wishing you good luck and fortune wherever you go in life!

At 10:41 am, Blogger Gem-X said...

Hi Anya,

After recently Reading Your Book I Thought I Would Take A Look At Your Blog.

I Was Deeply Moved By Your Book, But You Sheer Courage & Determination Shone Through The Book.

You Are An Inspiration To Many People & I think That Your Are Such A Wonderful Person!!

Wish You Every Success

Much Love. Gemma

At 9:27 pm, Anonymous Ana said...

Hi Anya, I've read your book and I've loved it. I live in Portugal, and I thought you're story very amusing although sad, it was one of the best 'true' storys I've ever read. I would like to know if you have already write another book, because i'm looking for to read it +.+

If you do, please email me to 'diogox_8@hotmai.com'

Xo Xo, Ana.

At 2:20 pm, Anonymous Andy said...


I read in the Readers Digest your story... I hope you read this. You wrote how you felt invisible... Did you consider suicide? Ever? What gave you hope not to think about or commit suicide??

I wish you could answer me just that. andrea072004@yahoo.com

May God bless you.
He has been strong in your weakness.

Thank you
South Africa (Social work studies)

At 12:38 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Pow Anya eu ñ sei falar ingles,e percebo mto pouco,sou Brasileira e atualmente resido em Portugal.comprei seu livro em final d setembro,pois achei a foto da capa parecida c uma foto minha d qdo criança,e o tema m intrigava.Por varios motivos vim terminar d ler ele hj,a poucos minutos atrás... Gostaria d dizer q a vida d imigrante tb ñ é facíl,e vc está m ajudando mto,pois acho q estava c depreção,mas como ñ procurei ajuda d medicos,ñ sei dizer,mas as pessoas mais proximas dizem q eu mudei,e estou tentando voltar ao normal,mas ta mto dificil,com base na sua história d vida,vou tentar,vc m deu forças,vc vai ser meu exemplo p sempre,vc ñ imagina como gostaria d falar c vc,sei q é mto dificil,e p isso ficar pelo menos mais facil p mim,vou voltar as aulas d ingles,q sempre digo q vou,mas sempre sou vencida e acabo ñ fazendo,espero q alguém traduza p vc caso vc ñ saiba o Portugues,pois queria mto q vc soubesse q por onde eu for vc e sua história estarão comigo e q ja t considero uma amiga... Obrigada por existir,sei q Deus esteve sempre c vc,e anjos q vc viu,são reais,e vc nasceu p vencer e ajudar pessoas como eu e como todos q t escrevem. Fique c Deus, E Q A PAZ DO SENHOR ESTEJA SEMPRE C VC E TODOS AO SEU REDOR... MIL BEIJOS! Vanessa

At 9:51 pm, Blogger beatie said...

What an inspirational story, i couldnt put it down, you should be proud of yourself everything that you went through and you still didnt give up on life, many homeless people give up on life after a few weeks, turn to drink and drugs and thats how it ends for them, you lived like that for so long but not once did you give up even at your lowest, you fought on and wanted to get your life back and for that you are an inspiration.
Good luck in your future Anya.
Beatrice Halifax, west yorkshire x

At 6:35 pm, Anonymous millie said...

Hello Anya, I have just finished reading your book, and your story has inspired me beyond belief. After the loss of my mother 4 months ago I myself have had issues with belonging to the world! I picked up your book completely by chance one day and hoped that it would help me escape from my life for a while by immersing myself in somebody else's ...well it did just that your book made me realise that whatever situation you find yourself in life there is always a way out providing that you keep on fighting and never give up...and your book has made me decide that I want to fight too...... just as you did all your life and if you did that then Im sure that I can do it for a small part of mine....thanks for reminding me not to be a coward
thank you xx

At 12:53 am, Anonymous Ashleigh. said...

Hello Anya. I'm only 14 years old and I've just finished reading your book.. I don't have any words to describe how it made mee feel. I only know that I should be thankfull for what I have, unlike what some people have for their childhood. Your book did make mee cry alot of times cos it was so heartbraking and sad. Even my sister was determind to take the book from me because it made mee cry so much but I just felt for you soo badly and wished I could have run upto you and take you away from all that revolting, sad and lonely bandess.. Anyways I just wanted to share that with you. Goodbye Anya & Cheer up. *smiles* from Ashleigh, Scotland. x x x.

At 11:53 am, Anonymous Violet Taito said...


You know, people used to tell me "When one door closes, another one opens. And if that door is jammed, jump in through the window." I hated that saying because I never really knew what they meant. Until I read your book. God will never put you in a situation that you cannot handle. Believe it. Because you taught me that. Blessed Be.

Violet Taito
Sydney, Australia

At 11:19 am, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Ola Anya. Sou de portugal, li o seu livro e adorei houve partes em que só me apetecia chorar, é quase impossivel imaginar que uma pessoa possa sofrer tanto, mas o mais importante é que consegui erguer-se, queria portanto dar-lhe os parabens pelo livro, admiro-o a pela sua coragem e pela sua força. Espero que o resto da sua vida seja muito feliz pois ja sofreu bastante. Abraços


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