Feb, 2006. For the past five months I have been living in a car at the edge of woods — jobless and homeless and totally unable to find a way out. I can't sing, I can't dance, I can't scream loudly enough, but I can read and write. So here I am laying down tracks...hopefully the start of an online paper trail out of here. (Update: Miracles happen....if you are reading my story I am part of your proof.)

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

...I turned a corner

Today it was the smell of lilacs. I turned a corner, on a road I'd never walked down before, quite close to home, and bang... There I was a child of seven or eight again, dragging her feet on the way to the big houses under the railway bridge, where on some Sunday mornings, a tiny lady who lived in one of them sold us rhubarb, and as a treat bunches of mint for potatoes. Delicious smells that would later fill our small flat....but before we got to them, we carried our huge bundles of rhubarb wrapped in newspaper home, walking along a crescent-shaped road that was full of (what I now know to be) lilacs, and the heavenly smell cleared everything else from your mind. For a while, everything...forcing you to be in the moment.... One of the saving graces of childhood.
To this day I love lilac - the colour, the smell, the look of them...and of course the way they make my mouth water for rhubarb crumble and minted potatoes.


At 9:10 am, Blogger Lucy (Mesdupmoi) said...

I've never been a fan of Rhubarb Crumble, or Rhubarb in general, but I DO love Lilac! Did you enjoy your writing weekend? Keep on Smiling. x.Lucy.x

At 4:37 pm, Blogger Little Evil Pixie said...

I just recently read your book and then decided to come see your blog. While the book definitly retold your story well it's a completely different experience and understanding to be able to read your blog which you wrote as you were living it. Thank Goodness your life has turned around. I wished the best for you as I read your book and I now wish the best of you for your future.

At 1:17 am, Blogger Unknown said...

I found your blog from reading your book. Thank you for writing it and putting your story out there for us all to read. I did not want put it down, but had to force myself in order to take it all in. In essence it was my story, but amped up about 1000-fold. I have cried buckets whilst reading it. Your story of survival is a credit to you and your `angels'. May you be further blessed.

At 6:29 am, Anonymous SiLeNt_AnGeL said...

I am one of the many that have read your book and had my heart forever touched by your story, thank you for having the courage to write what so many people can only dream to have the courage to tell others. you are an inspiration.

At 6:43 pm, Anonymous Marie Jones said...

Hi my name is Marie.
I have just read your book and felt compelled to read your blogs.
I admire your strength ans adversity.
Like you I suffered physical and sexual abuse as a child and have felt lonely and lost. Although it was the worst time of my life I feel I owe my father grattitude for all he made me endurem My life hass not been sheltered and I have grrown into a strong independant woman, striving to do my best. I have felt pain like most people couldn't imagine but I am stronger for it.
Thank you for having the courage to do what most abuse victims feel they can't, sharing the stories of your past and as I have found, if you share just a small part of the horrors you've faced, it lessen the burden just slightly.
I am glad you have found you feet and are getting settled again. I wish you a long and happy life.
Many regards
Marie xx

At 1:16 pm, Anonymous kellbell said...

i have just finished reading your book and couldnt put it down.as i am someone who was fortunate enough never to suffer abuse as a child i cannot comprehend what you went through but your book has enabled me to sample a little glimpse of the horror some children go through.you are a true inspiration so keep smiling and best of luck to you for the future.

At 9:40 am, Anonymous Joanne said...

hi anya,
I have to say I started reading you book thursday and have just finished it.
I was compelled by your honesty, you have been through so much and on your way out the other side now.
you are one strong and insirational lady and never forget that and like you say miracles do happen. You have inspired me not to stop believing and it seems you have touched so many lifes and you will continue to.
so keep your head up and good things will come and I am sure if you havent all ready you will be in full time employent and have a house of your very own.
I am sure it will be filled with love, I hope that Your Mummy and kathy have been in touch and that they can see what a true star they have and should be very proud of you. Thank you for inspiring me and to keep believing!!!
Joanne Northolt Middlesex

At 10:44 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

hi my name is Valerie Ryan ireland
Just finished your book "Abandoned" what an inspirational story about your life and you still come across as a very humble person. I cried countless times about what you endured at such a young age,and how i feel you were let down by your family. I really hope you are happy now you desreve it.

Happy Christmas


At 12:49 pm, Anonymous kaijupixie said...

yay!!.i finally found your blog!!
you know what? i started a blog after reading your book..........i felt like i should write too.

i dont have anything to write but i wanted to leave a comment on your blog so yeah!!
your book was very inspirational and i love how honest you were with the facts!!
i am very happy for you that you finally figured out your life!

stay happy forever ^_^

At 9:40 pm, Anonymous Anonymous said...

Just read your book,got it in the library It was a really great read,just wondering how your life is going now!hope you're happy.

God bless you.


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